Beginning of the year a new chapter

To signify the beginning of 2016 I start this journal with thoughts that I am no longer a person with a mental illness I am instead in recovery from mental unwellness, that I believe was brought on by both my circumstances in life and the medication I was put on.

To signify this entrance into the world of recovery I have set  up a new blog address blonde recovers !
It is important to me to recover in my time but in successful fashion.

I have started this recovery process by dropping a tablet at night and am going through withdrawal symptoms that haven't been pleasant but I have also noticed a positive change in my demeanour and attitude towards life in general, I seem to have a more positive disposition. I am looking ahead to the future with clarity that I didn't have before.

Now I am not suggesting by my post that you should go off your medications, far from that definitely but I am suggesting that looking at what goes into you by means of medications, the side effects of such drugs.

I have noticed with several of the medications the psychiatrist has had me on that there are side effects of worsening suicidal thoughts, intentions, and behaviour. So basically what they have had me on could of been making things harder in that respect. Instead of feeling like it was the drugs causing me to have these thoughts I have been thinking I'm going crazy but yet with the reduced dose I have already noticed a change and haven't been plotting suicide.

So whats really responsible for the suicidal thoughts?

I do believe that psychiatrists and doctors are over prescribing harmful antidepressants, and other medicines, which actually do more harm than good. Its their way of shushing up the patient but the patient ends up being classified and put in a box stigma associated to it, they are heavily medicated and drugged up to the eyeballs, they become a zombie, and in affect lose all rights to a normal life and a decent chance of employment as their lives are taken over by so called drugs that are meant to help them.

Im not saying that there aren't times when the specialists get the diagnosis right etc and medication and hunky dory the person is happy and satisfied.''

I'm just saying there is an awful lot of over prescribing, and these medications are so harmful and even toxic to withdraw from with terrible side effects, for example at the moment since I dropped the tablet I have been coping with severe nausea, stomach cramps, pain in my body, chest pains, diarrhoea and there are just some of the lovely side effects.  I have heard of side effects lasting even up to a year or beyond. I do hope however that is not the case with me.

I do realise I may need to stay on some sort of medication, but the side effects of many of my drugs include having issues with pregnancy and perhaps birth defects, problems breastfeeding etc.

I know that some diagnosis's including Borderline personality disorder basically came about because psychiatrists did not know where to slide people in, and had to fit them into the mental health index somewhere.

Once a diagnosis is put on your records its extremely difficult if not impossible to get off and causes so much stigma from people around you. Those professionals in the police force, ed department and ambulance staff all treat you differently because of your diagnosis. Shouldn't be so but it is.

So what do you do if you feel you have been wronged and treated unfairly a so called diagnosis back in 2009 and everyone has just gone with it, but is it truly truthful does it sum up everything wrong with you as a person..


food for thought there,'


signing off Nite.

T