WHATS THE DEAL WITH PSYCHIATRIC MEDICATIONS! Helpful? HARMFUL!!!!!!

So what is the deal with Psychiatric Medications!!!!!!!

If you put people on this stuff it should be to help them not to harm them further, for example: create other symptoms, side effects than what was there to begin with.

I know people, myself included that have just been labelled and then put on these drugs like they are lollies. Well they are not  lollies they are harmful, they are addictive, and in the majority of cases they can make you feel worse than you felt before you were put on them in the first place!

I wish these Health Professionals would realise how important it is to look at all other avenues before going down the avenue of prescribing psychiatric medications.

Psychiatric Medications are trapping so many individuals that start on a certain drug and become used to it, their body adjusts and because their body has adjusted to that medication being in the individuals system its so hard for them to tapper off without having severe withdrawal symptoms!

Some withdrawal symptoms can last years!

Who wants that?

In any case individuals may feel they are trapped on these psychiatric drugs, and are unable to withdraw because the second they try the withdrawal process they feel worse, and then they think its them that is making their symptoms worse they do not realise its the drug. So they hurry to get back on it. Next time the whole process starts again.

Or they give up and think whats the use in trying to live life when these medications affect me to such a point where everything I do is useless and I'm stuck on them being reliant with side effects, and no future.  This is dangerous thinking.

I worry about psychiatric drugs as the reliance of the person involved on the psychiatric drug they are worse than some of the hard core drugs, or just as bad.

These individuals may feel that they need a stronger dose of these psychiatric medications, and doctors and psychiatrists are all too happy to up the dosage. Anything to keep the individual drugged and silent.

Its a forever trap.

The problem is too when these ones prescribing these medications decide to put you on 3 or 4 heavy medications with side effects for each, crazy side effects that do not make sense, they make you more screwed up mentally than you were before going on the medications.

Also some of those medications have black box, warnings clear as day that may cause suicide, idelation and attempts.

How many people have committed suicide in NZ!!

If you for instance are on 3 different psychiatric drugs and each of them cause suicide whats the chance that they are adding to your messed up mentality and causing you suicide idealtion.  You cannot tell  me that they are actually making you better when its clearly labelled.

One particular medication I looked up which is Venlaflaxine, causes 60% percent of suicide. WTF?
As well as suicidal idelation, suicide attempts and violence.

Quitiapian has Suicide as a possible result, also Epilim has suicide as a possible outcome as it also causes suicidal idelation. These are just three drugs. But I personally am taking all of these drugs, and Venlaflaxine a very high dose, I also have borderline personality disorder, bipolar 2, PTSD, and depression.

I know a lot of the time my suicidal ideation, is blamed on the Borderline Personality Disorder, but for instance what if its not Borderline but from all of these other so called meant to be helping me drugs that are making me feel desperate, and creating thoughts and plans that would not be there otherwise, or would be there but to a lesser degree than they are now.

There are plenty of studies whether the outcome has not be positive for people who have been prescribed these drugs, look up Antidepressants and Suicide and you will see case after case of where over a period people have been tracked. Also Wikipedia has some information that is useful.

Some of these psychiatric drugs also cause heart issues, SVT, so you have to take other medications as well to account for that. This has happened in my case.

These psychiatric medications also create violence and have been linked to some of the worst tragedies in America, for example school shootings etc. Yes the SSRI's, antidepressants cause more issues, and are dangerously given  to people without making them aware of the risks involved! Read an article "Prescription for Murder"


What I think we need to do is
* Be more aware of the risks of going onto antidepressants, anti psychotics, mood stabilizers.
any drugs make sure you know what side effects you are going to suffer, and potential side effects.

* Make sure you are monitored carefully on any new drug.  Also take notes, and monitor your moods.
so you have something to show your health professional.


* Look at options before going onto medications.
For instance  - counselling, psychologist, psychotherapist.

*Look at alternate therapies such as DBT and CBT
* Mindfulness, training.

* lifestyle changes, exercise, eating healthy, sleep habits.
*any natural therapies    



We can do a lot for ourselves to get through a difficult period. Its important not to isolate yourself and let others around you know you are struggling, its not shameful to ask for help! Being willing to talk really is important because you do not want to be carrying this burden on your own.

We all need someone!


Also Its time to look at these Psychiatric medications and work out do we actually need them or are they doing more harm than good!

the news i was dreading

Today, Yesterday, and Last night have been especially hard times for me where I have struggled to stay present, have struggled to control my suicidal feelings, and thinking.

I thought it was a fault of the medication I was on as my mood was dipping after taking my Epilim medication especially in the evening, but when I saw another psychiatrist today for a second opinion she said its very unusual for medications to do that, and its a mood stabiliser. She said its more likely that its you and your condition being Borderline and just something you have to endure with the help of DbT strategies and the mental health service which is now Tahika.


It was very hard to hear from her that I was definitely a diagnosis of Borderline Personality disorder. I hoped she would say I was something else, but in fact its a dual diagnosis of Bipolar 2, Ptsd, Depression, and Borderline Personality disorder.

I walked away from that appointment crying. Yes I was hoping in my heart to not be the stigmatising illness that she said I was.

So tonight I'm left again in a position where I need to get through my own psychological hell.

I would say things have been improving with getting the job and everything so during the day things are better but night times are still very hard.

also I forgot to take a pill the other day and even though I took it yesterday as well as my normal meds Ive been left in quite a desperate state which I am trying to control.


anyway I don't feel much like talking so gonna go now.

Education is Power when it comes to antidepressants,

I want to have a chat about antidepressants in general. I know for some they are useful and they put you in a good place mentally. But I also know for others like myself that there are terrible side effects and you are taking dangerous cocktails of pills, antidepressants, anti psychotics, and so forth that have as a side effect that they may increase suicidality, suicidal ideation, and behaviour.

So why in fact would doctors and psychiatrists put you on pills that make you worse than you were to begin with.

I know with myself I have started to monitor how I feel when I have taken my evening meds. I notice that there is a noticeable drop in my state of mind, I go from being optimistic and somewhat positive to being so suicidal, being slow with my thoughts and brain function,

Its downright dangerous and stupid to be put on pills that make you more suicidal.
I am on like 3 different medications with the side effect makes you suicidal, more likely to attempt suicide, please watch individuals for warning signs of suicide.

When will doctors learn that the antidepressants can cause more harm to the individual then the individual themselves.

if you read the side effects of drugs you will see there is like a paragraph of side effects to watch out for,

None of these medication side effects were what i  or others on medications signed up for.  We weren't even told about them, or even the fact that pregnancy is affected, the foetus inside, maybe even breastfeeding.

You take medication to improve your state of mind, as well as having counselling to help as well.

If the pills are causing you to be suicidal and ill and yet your mental health service blames it on you and so called Personality disorder, how do you stand up to that sort of critique.

It is very difficult to stand up to that sort of criticism because they claim it is just you and your nature causing the very issues that the medication is causing.

You wonder what sort of person, would I be without the cocktail of antidepressants and antipsychotics?

I think people are owed a lot from mental health services because lives can be ruined because of these drugs and how they affect you.  Controlling you in a way thats just absurd.

But yet to get off the things that is a mission too.

The withdrawal symptoms just aren't worth thinking about.

But yet for some to have a better life they have to go through these terrible withdrawals and just suffer till they are off the medication.


There needs to be more awareness of what is going into a persons system before they actually take it. Know the side effects, what to expect, and how difficult its going to be to get off the medication if it doesn't work.

Education is Power.

New Facebook Group for Supporting mental health TRYING TO LIVE

I am writing this blog article to let my readers know that I have set up a facebook group called TRYING TO LIVE.



POSITIVES OF GROUP
There are 5 admins on the page including myself with lived experience of mental unwellness
Your Welcome to contact Admins by Msg and talk to them privately, and welcome to post need an admin
strict criteria of entry
strict criteria of posts that are acceptable, need to be positive encouraging, not Triggering,as vunerable individuals using the page.
encouragement daily to keep living
highlighting the principles of DBT therapy
highlighting the principles of CBT therapy
Positive affirmations,
Admins post from personal experience what has worked for them strategies to keep well
members are encouraged to post positive content and give positive feedback.
Anyone not following rules of group or negative is warned and then removed from the group.
commendation is encouraged as its a difficult journey
We work as a team for the wellbeing of all the members providing content that is appropriate to build up the wellbeing of all members.



The group has not been running long but already has picked up people who have fallen through the cracks of mental health services in NZ.

For that I am proud of what we have achieved in such a short time.

For all who want to join the group its called Trying to Live on Facebook

A new girl

Haven't been here for quite some time but this is because I have been happier in general and enjoying my new occupation working in a clothing store sole charge. This job opportunity came out of the blew and I am so happy that it did. I have purpose now and a reason to be. I have the added benefit of using my creativity to display garments and jewellery, also dressing and undressing the maniquins in the shop and coordinating outfits together, using colour and style, I have always had a nack for knowing what looks good with what and now I can demonstrate that in store and in the window displays.

In the job I am working I am working parttime hours, and hours that are doable for someone who is on medication and under mental health. So I am really pleased. I do not start really early in the morning or finish really late. I have the freedom to lock the shop and unlock it. So my boss appreciates that I am mature enough to be left in charge and set the alarm etc.

She also wants us to wear clothes from the shop to advertise what we have available so this is an added benefit.

My boss is so happy with me and accepts that I am religious and has not issue with that fact she said she loves the fact that I have principles and morals and standards that are high including that of honesty. Shes been lovely in the fact of giving me time off to go to church on a Sunday and any other religious events that occur with my religion.

I seriously feel like a new girl! A confident individual.

Not in a million years did I believe I could work in retail as my maths has been a problem. But I have found I have coped really well and things that were unattainable before actually may be a possibility.

Even my parents have been surprised by how well I have taken to working.

Wow wow wow.
Thats all I can say at this moment I am just so grateful for this opportunity!

update the year is going good

This year has started really well already and I am so excited to see what the year has to offer further.

First off I had my trip up North and seeing my friend in Auckland and going to her lovely large Indian Wedding which was such an experience in itself.

Then I had the whole chains loosening from parental control as I travelled up North on my own and successfully took care of myself for two weeks without them around, I caught public transport even though I was not even familiar with Auckland, and its surrounding areas.

I also decided to withdraw my medications slightly and even though suffered terrible withdrawal symptoms and had to go back on my medications for the time being, I stood on my two feet and made a decision to come off and followed through on what I said.

I have also been dating my best friend for 2 years and even though its a long distance relationship I know we will be together soon I feel it in my gut. So does he. You know when you know when someone is for you well that's how we feel about each other just so in sync and without a word there is this closeness and this bond. Sometimes its worth waiting for something special, that's how it is with us we are waiting for each other but its going to be magic.

I have also started a new job working in retail in a clothing and jewellery design shop in Grey-town. I tell you its so pleasurable to be working when you haven't for such a long time. Especially getting out of the house and meeting people.

Today I have been challenged to handle many transactions at once for clothing and jewellery and pleased to say have past the test and been very quick and efficient which is a massive boost to the confidence level when your successful in something.

Anyway as you gather from this journal article im doing a lot better than I was doing having the job is definitely helping to keep me positive and looking forward.

I am doing more in my religion too and enjoying it more than I have in years Yay for me!