Crazy Vivid Dream

Last night I had a terrifying dream. I will tell you about it.

I was out and about with family and all of a sudden we were stranded and had to get home and I was the only driver available to drive us home.

We were in a 4 wheel drive type vehicle. But for some reason when driving the car just kept accelerating more and more to the point where I lost control. I was not able to slow the car down,

I ran a red light. Lucky no one was killed.

Later I found out someone had been killed by my actions.

It was a stranger not known to me in any way, but I found myself losing my license and having to go to court for my actions.
Also I had to go to this man's funeral and face his grieving family,

This dream felt so real, I expected to wake up and face the consequences of my actions.

I could not see the mans face.

I had the reality of the funeral, it was dark, and everyone was wearing black. They were listening to the eulogy and crying and crying....they were looking at me with disdain, and such hatred like you would not know as I caused  this mans death.
My parents and family gave me a  hard time for killing this individual,
I felt this guilt of taking a life. Even if it was by accident, I knew I would have to live with this for the rest of my life and could not escape the consequences.

I remember a member of the mans family coming up to me and just telling I wasn't sincere and should be crying and carrying on because i was the bitch that stole their family member from them .

My mother was talking with the mans mother, and acting as if I was the worst daughter and deserved all I got in consequences for my actions.


This morning I have been trying to find the meaning of this dream :

repressed emotions maybe - on the verge of losing temper

maybe its my subconscious killing off part of me that no longer is required. UN-needed, unpleasant part of self

Killing off old habits, thinking

feeling detached from those around me



Whatever the meaning of this dream was it was damn scary to dream this and wake up this morning.