emotional abuse behind closed doors

Emotional abuse.

What you don' t see behind closed doors.

The girl hiding in her room frightened of her mother, weary of her moods, knows she will say something that will sting. She sits in isolation because its easier than facing conflict, you always have to give in to her demands. She sits silently wishing she was anywhere than where she is, she sits thinking if only I had a different life.
She knows her mother could burst through her door at any time. She also knows she will put her down make her feel small., unimportant, she will emphasize her mistakes. Everything is always the daughters fault.

The daughter hears peoples voices in her mind telling her to get out, but its not that easy. To turn away from something that has been normality for so long. Shes used to being used, to being hurt, to being unloved.
She wonders if she is loved or not, and if not why not.
whats wrong with her.

She only sees this is not the way things are meant to be when she visits others, sees other families, other mothers and daughters that did not have these interactions.
The mother cared enough about the daughter to shout her clothes, to hug her, to understand her feelings, and not create drama.

She knows that she is stuck in an environment that is not healthy. She does not get anything out of this exchange.

She tries to negotiate in her own mind and tell herself that its okay , that tomorrow will be better. That next week her mother wont be so moody. Its wishful thinking.
The police are aware of the struggle, they know what goes on behind closed doors is abuse.
But is she brave enough to leave the abuse behind.

Everything is blamed on her condition on her sickness.
You have a personality disorder so everything is taken out of context
she second guesses herself and says maybe i am too sensitive.
so she allows the abuse to continue..